Worship music was playing as I got ready this morning. I sang along but I wasn’t necessarily heart-engaged. Then the song Find Me by the Helsers came on. One line stopped me short. “Til all I know is I’ve been found by Love.” In a moment I was in tune with Holy Spirit. Found by love.
Found. By. Perfect Love. I’ve never been the same. How about you?
The song goes on to repeat a musical prayer. At the end of my days, Lord find me, faithful.
Selah.
Let us continue in devotion and hunger.
Let our faith drive us to more and more risk in the power of Jesus.
Let us forever rejoice to simply be found by Love.
June 28th I celebrated 33 years being found by God. Not that He ever lost me, but I lost connection with Him. I remember that day like it was yesterday.
I had been in and out of churches most of my life, baptized three times in different denominations. Yet I still bore the scars of shame, abortion, and sin’s wreckage. My heart was still very much lost.
I ran crying out of my current church and into a nearby gazebo. I had crossed some threshold of knowing, that despite going through the motions, I did not know God. My Bible, which I also did not know at all, fell open to 1st John 4.
Perfect love casts out fear.
I called out to the evening sky. What do you want from me?
And for the first time, I heard Him. Your heart.
I told Him I didn’t have much heart left.
Just give me the pieces and I’ll take it from here. He said.
At that moment, I experienced this distinct reality of chains rattling and a cage flinging open. In the physical, I took a deep breath like I was breathing for the first time. All the brokenness had been washed off. I felt free for the very first time— and loved. Perfectly loved.
I laughed through my tears, “If this is what freedom feels like, I’ll never shut up again.”
He made sure of that! I shared my testimony for the first time six months later and have been sharing my God-life ever since.
Jesus and I have gone from one adventure to another. Then He birthed the beautiful adventure of Greater Things.
So many miracles. So much joy. So much challenging growth.
And we’re still not done God is setting the stage for new works for me and Chuck in Florida, and continued growth for the new GT in Tennessee, as we all carry the same powerful story.
“Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so.”
33 years later, I can certainly attest to God’s faithfulness to me in every season, every broken place, every need, and every desire. Through each step, He’s been good and so very, very present.
I’m sure your story is similar. What then can we offer Him?
At the end of my days, Lord find me, faithful.